EN:
We finally reached the end of this freaking year; it has been a rollercoaster and a damn real alarm to our anthropological capacities. I decided to write some words as an archival retrospective:
In the last 12 months, I've seen true evilness and misfortune in many shapes and forms - flags raised, these words come to you from someone who's been quite comfortable with lady darkness here since a young age. I felt pain in levels I never thought I could handle. At the same time my sanity and dignity were violently tested, I witnessed loved ones suffering, dying, leaving and falling apart. Life definitely brought some serious punches in 2020 for me and my loved ones, I struggled harder than I ever did. But I refused to die my last internal death like it's a thing and holded my shit together so I could be the best me to others.
Also this year, I was told I am not a good person at heart. That I don't know how Empathy works. I felt ashamed of my efforts and was mocked most of the time, so I fought my way through it and had a laugh. I've been an empath all my life. You know, a lot of sociological History has shown us how we can choose to realize that the ones facing the abyss easily develop honorable levels of understanding, measuring worth, realness and genuineness intuitively.
While fake smiles stare at you out of their misconcieved pity - wishing you a better life but secretly hoping you'll soon fall down -, just give them a quick checkup on human Strength and rock your soul a big A+. Only thanks to truthful human bonds was I able to get up several times and redirect the stamina towards what matters to me in life. Growing is a process of humanization, not a process of getting colder and freeze to death. So if you're not planning to be a loser and take the easiest path out, there's a need to be passionate, vulnerable and not ashamed. In a world ravaged by selfishness, we're becoming everless human, loosing our deepest qualities, shooting our own feet, start bleeding and don't even minding. We can all very well be dead by tomorrow so stop being self-centered. Look after each other, act like you mean it, even if you're making mistakes, do not quit. Breathe, try harder, learn, expect nothing in return. Stay kind but not artificial, be true to yourself, accept mental health and emotional connection as a priority instead of repudiating it. Staring only at your ego is a very dangerous journey driving you nowhere and leaving you empty at the end. Surround yourself with people who'll make you grow healthier and vivid despite your flaws, help them grow back.
We rise by lifting others.
A lot of love to all my dearest people and inspiring references, I'll be there with you always. Fuck the world, let's Cramp!